I can't help but feel so tempted to do other stuff, disregarding all the workload on my back. However, I have to keep going on to reach the finish line. Running away from problems and responsibilities will not erase them. I have to face them full force and break the barriers of pain and hard effort.
Despite having all the positive thinking, I feel down and restless. All I want to do is to relax and do nothing. Logically, I would be losing out in so many areas if I did that. Remembering the another day, I feel motivated to be better person with high dreams and hopes. I have so much to do and so little time. I guess I need more time management and self-discipline to reach my destination in life. XP
I have to be calm and composed to think straight and maturely before taking abrupt and irrational actions that might lead to wastage of precious time and money as well. Darn, I feel that I'm thinking like an old man. I want to be funky and fun but it seems that it's not my nature. I just have to be who I am and enjoy the little companions that I have. Being someone else is a real struggle since I have to always put on a mask to fit in.
Come to think of it, people who I used to know in TEP have started to ignore and give me Stearn faces whenever we crossroads. I guess bad rumours about me have spread all over their network. I pretty much understand that I did a few mistakes like being to impulsive, short-tempered, arrogant and once, a jerk. However, I want to change all that now. I need to improve people management skills and let everyone enjoy when they work with me. It's hard to be leader but I'll learn and strive to be a better one. Oops, I'm kinda hungry with all that work, time to chow down some food!
"Like they say, if problems keep pushing you down, keep getting up and never give up."